If you ask any parent what is the worst thing that could possibly happen to them I guarantee they would all say losing a child. As parents, we can’t imagine outliving our children so the loss of a child becomes the unthinkable regardless of the age of that child. The leading cause of prolonged grief is caused by the loss of a child and is considered the worst possible grief that anyone could ever endure.
I had so many questions that I knew I would never have the answers to after losing my daughter and I didn’t see myself living without her. It was my faith in God that got me through and still gets me through my most difficult times. I was always able to somehow view it in the sense that things could have always been worse. I could have lost all of my children that day or more could have been associated with my daughter’s death. My pain could have been far worse so I had to face my harsh reality and try to push through not just for the sake of my remaining children but for my sanity as well.
Never in a million years would I have imagined that I would be a bereaved mother. Never in a million years would I have imagined I would have survived the heartache. For a very long time I remained depressed, felt guilt, despair and loneliness. This was all normal and part of the process and once I learned to acknowledge my emotions in each step of grieving is when I began to heal.
Losing a child changes your whole world and you will never be the person that you once were. The tragedy of losing my daughter has however strengthened me in ways that I can’t put into words and somehow made me a better woman. It opened my eyes to never take anyone or anything for granted and to live each day as if it were my last.
“I can wipe the tears from my eyes, but I can’t wipe the pain from my heart”. There will absolutely be bad days just try not to be so consumed with the pain that you miss out on all of the great things that are before you. Take it one day at a time and know that better days are to come in your new life.