Although it doesn’t feel like it right now, things will get better.  The rain doesn’t last always and the sun will shine again. Some days will be brighter than others but it will get better. The pain becomes more bearable.  You won’t ever forget, you won’t ever get over it but you will make it through.

I know that Shae is so very proud of where I am today.  When she first passed, some days I’d get up, get the kids off to school, get right back in bed and cry and sleep the day away.

Everything reminded me of her and  I just didn’t think I could make it without her.  I couldn’t talk about her without having a panic attack, I was a little embarrassed to even share my story at times because guilt made me feel that I had somehow failed as a parent.

I was able to eventually grow into this new life, sharing her story in hopes of helping others.  Not just for the parents but also for children suffering feeling lost and hopeless and letting them know what we face in life without them.

I’ve put my daughter to college, watch my oldest son grow and leave the nest.  I was able to allow new love in my life with a new baby, new husband and two bonus children. I also began “Walking for Shae” with Out of the Darkness for Suicide prevention.  I am able to now blog and share our story with the world.

You have people counting on you and they need you to be okay and know there’s still so much to be thankful for.  Just take a look around you.

Let this test of life become your testimony for helping others.

Remember the people around you.  They are also in pain and need you more than you know!